vihm kestab

Vihm kestab, mina kestan.
Ma tundsin rõõmu ja sellel polnud põhjust. Seisin totaalselt sajuses Tartus Kaubamaja ja Kvartali vahelise ülekäiguraja ääres (et ületada Kvartali poole) ja kuulasin midagi head. See rääkis tasakaalust ja äärmustest. Soovitan lihtsalt klikkida siia, et helifail arvutisse laadida. Tõesti, väärt kuulamine - eriti näiteks teel olles kuskile. Nii lahe, et armas Gerli mind kunagi selleni viis.
Naeratasin totakalt ja nautisin vihma, seda vihma, mida ma juba teist nädalat pean kevadeks ja hoopis mitte sügiseks. Mütsi jätsin Viljandisse. Tahtsingi vett juustesse lasta. Tundus, nagu kiharad oleks juba nii kohastunud, et hülgavad nagu kilejope.

Colin Hudon: "I would say there's a third aspect which should take as much primacy as anything. There's nothing in our education system or upbringing that emphasizes our interior lives. There is meditation, but it is a practise, it doesn't mean an actual study of the interior life. Like anything - if you try to study anything outside, there's a process of learning that usually, if it's a complex field or discipline, is years of study. I suggest our interior lives are as complex if not more complex and more worthy of that same level of rigour and inquiry, even approach that is methodical, diligent and focused of investigating and understanding the interior life as much as the exterior world. There is nothing in our contemporary culture that suggests that this is a worthwhile endeavour. There aren't really tools for this.

A suggestion to show you that you are asleep: I call them alarm clocks. If you take something that you choose for the day or the week. Say, its every door i will go through, i will use with the left hand. Brush my teeth with the left hand. Be aware of my right foot every time i walk up a set of stairs today. Use something that you are inserting in your reality as an alarm clock to be present in that moment to your mental, physical and emotional being and sensatsions in your body, in that moment. To take stock, to take a photograph. Not to learn from that, but just to take the moment of "can i see myself in this moment?". I've done this practice for years and I found that the first thing you see is that, many days will pass sometimes, when you have given yourself this task of setting this alarm clock, many days pass, and you realize you haven't been there for one of those moments. you haven't remembered to do it once. And if you cant remember to do it even once, you have to ask yourself - "where was I ? What was I doing in that moment? Was I daydreaming? Was I in the past or the future? I wasn't present, that's for certain." The process of doing that is developing just the criteria or the tools with which you can start to excavate and explore your interior reality. Or even to see it at all. Like I was saying, it's a discipline that I think takes many years. We can be awake and navigate reality mechanically and sometimes wakefully, well enough, but it doesnt mean that youre navigating reality masterfully. There's a lot there to explore, but try to give yourself some simple aim and see if you can maintain it for a couple of days and make a practise of it."

Samuti: mul vist on magneesiumpuudus. Ka kummuti- ja diivanipuudus. Kui kellelgi on emba-kumba üle, siis pls.. help a sister out. Riided kurvalt kohvris.

Samuti: hämmastav, kui kiiresti üks küünal võib lühikeseks põleda.

Samuti: Stefan, mu kullakallis üleookeanikirjasõber tuleb detsembris Soome vanematele külla ja me reaalselt kohtume!! Whattt!


(meeldib nende cover originaalist rohkem nohatepls)